Deny me what I do not deserve

Be as happy after death as before.

True love, like any other fatal illness, can occur only once in life. It lingers and slowly gnaws you to death. There is no escape, mainly because you wouldn't want to escape the sweet agony that inexorable extinction.

I am back to my old self. Depressed, numb. I seem to have lost even the few friends I had.

Miracles too obey the Third Law of motion. Every good miracle has an opposite bad miracle. As the swine in Gadarenes discovered.